Apathy

The next attack has come and it is one I didn’t expect

A feeling of emptiness and one of which is hard to detect

I feel that my brother has left me and moved on to other things

It is amazing the amount of pain that such a feeling brings

I wish my brother would keep me and things would remain

But it looks like that is not the case and soon he will forget my name

And so this attack begins for I am tired and alone

The apathy grows and sinks as deep as the bone

I question why God placed him in my life 

And wonder why now the relationship is full of strife

I remember back when we were strong 

And ask myself what on earth went wrong

But again the apathy rises 

And again I try to fight it.

Bleed For Me

I bleed for others but my blood is running low,

Who will bleed for me?

I fight other's battles with no concern for my own,

Does someone bleed for me?

I'm losing my battle with more torment coming into sight,

Can someone bleed for me?

I know my Lord is there, but I just can't see his light,

Has someone bled for me?

I feel my pulse slowing as the blood in me drains,

If someone would bleed for me?

I need a rescue and for a friend to take the pains,

Will you bleed for me?

Brother

Brother I need your help.

I wish for your guidance and strength for I have none myself.

Things are beginning to mount and my mind is filled with doubt.

Brother I need your help.

I know I am not a perfect and should not strive to be,

As of right now my inadequacies are evident to me.

I wish the world would just let me be.

Brother I need your help.

My mind is in a bad place.

I try to fight my own battle.

But all I do is disgrace.

Brother I need your help.

This battle can not be won alone.

I know the storm is coming and I will lose if on my own.

So please brother I need your help.

Poem 34 - How Deep The Fathers Love

How deep the Fathers love.

That he should love someone like me.

How deep the Father's love.

That he will not sit and let me be.

How deep the Father's love.

That he stays even when I fail.

How deep the Father's love.

That he shows me where to sail.

How deep the Father's love.

That he fight for me who has fallen.

How deep the Father's love.

That he choses my heart to dwell in.

Poem 33 - Peace

I cry to you now o creator of life.
I look to your light o conqueror of night.
I listen for your words o speaker of worlds.
I long for your embrace o bestower of grace.

My life is not a failure for you will always appear.
My soul will not be empty for you are near.
My heart is not heavy for it is you i will hold dear.
My love is not hollow for you are always here.

The path has opened and i shall follow.
The gate is raises and I will pass through.
The load is light and will always be this way.
The companion I have will never lead me astray.

I see those in my life and thank you for them.
They will see the new me and know I am from you.
I will travel with them and we will alway be in Him.
So we shall travel and journey to life anew.

Poem 32 - Humbly

I have tried to walk humbly 

But my God is the one who knows

I've tired to shed my weight

But it seems my load always grows

I remember the days of old

When I would look to you and be free

The sweet feeling of peace

When I opened my eyes it is you i would see

The sun shines brightly and warms my face

I raise a song of praise 

And as I sit I can feel your sweet embrace

The thought is fleeting 

And to reality, I am quickly brought back

The cold is setting in

And so my heart, again, begins to crack

I will walk a while 

For I am too weak to think about giving in

I'm still walking alone

I really wish that you would walk with me again 

Poem 31 - Hope

I hope for a day that will never come.
I long for the one that will never arrive.


My heart breaks, for you will never be someone.
The sadness evolves and into sorrow I dive.


My body continues on, an empty husk of what used to be.
The heart hardens, and a thick wall it creates.


The shadow of a man is all that I can see.
My pain is what I feel and there is no one to relate.


I will continue traveling for the journey is not through.
So in this cold cruel world I continue to run.


Will another come and take me away from you?
Only time will tell but it is something to hope on.

Poem 30 - The Fishing Trip

I look out on this vast ocean, and I wonder where I am supposed to be.


Yesterday was paradise, but today is a sight to see.


I'm fighting the waters, but am unable to break free.


This squal is relentless, and it looks to overtake me.


I turn my boat towards home, in hopes of escaping the pain that will be.


The old saying is, that there are plenty of fish in the sea.


However, I don't think that there is anyone for me.

Poem 29 - The Fight

The battle is here, my weary body rises.

The fight starts, and I wonder if I will survive this.

The battle rages, and the casualties mount.

The fight is done, and I have survived this bout.

I am sick, and my body is wounded.

I have been given this life where my being is in bondage.

The next opponent has arrived.

It is from my sin that it is derived.

I ready for battle and hide my plight.

For the masses want a perfect fight.

However, my body is tired and I can sense the end.

Without help, this is one fight I cannot win.

Poem 28 - The Chaos Of Loss

I'm falling and and my eyes are shut.  I try to move forward but I'm stuck in a rut.

This path I travel is dark and twisted.  I wish this burden, from my heart, would be lifted.

I need some help, but know not were to turn.  I think of you and my heart begins to burn.

I hear the music, but it is not the song I want.  I want to compete even though I am not in the hunt.

My world is crashing and falling around me.  I wish the tables were turned and then you would see.

But you are my friend and I can't hurt you.  I still care for you even though I don't want to.

I walk alone in this bitter weather.  I wish that the days were still as light as a feather.

Where is this light so many talk about.  I don't see how I can live without.

My God where did you go.  My heart is in pain and feeling low.

Remember me and see me through.

Please Lord I beseech you.

Poem 27 - How Do You Crush A Dream?

How do you crush a dream? 
How do you move on?


How do you carry on? 
How about when you don't want to?


How do you tell the heart you are through? 
How do you fight the feeling?


How do you stop the bleeding?  
How do you start the search anew?


How do you move on, even when you don't want to?